Moving on

My heart hurts today. My heart hurts alot.
People here are hurting, For whom I care with all I've got.
I want to be the hero. I want to save the day.
I cant do much of that, when I dont know what to say.
While I try to find my way, I need the freedom to explore.
I want to peer in every window. I'd like to open every door.
One may bend to comprehend, but you may never understand.
A hero's work is never done. The heart is always in demand.

Its Monday.I finally have some down time to catch my breath, pet my dog and reflect on all the craziness in my life right now. We had two more decent shows on Saturday and Sunday night. Still NOTHING compared to LAST Sunday nights show. I'm starting to wonder if maybe we peaked that night. I think we can get it together for a few more kick-ass performances, but it really takes a solid commitment from EVERY single cast member and thats tough when there are TEN cast members. If we get a good, jolly, full house next weekend, I think we can bust out another good one.Saturday night was stressful for me because for one, a small group of my closest friends were coming and I got really really nervous before the show. Then once we began, and I got through the first two scenes, I saw my friends...my really, really LATE friends, being ushered into the theater, then I got pissed off and totally lost focus. It took me another 2 or 3 scenes to regain my composure and re-connect with my character.Sunday night, two other friends came out to the theater...15 MINUTES late...missed my opening scene..and once again, I totally lost focus and struggled to get my shit together.I shouldnt let that stuff effect me, but ...it just did...what can I say?So we are coming up on our last four performances. While I can really use the break, I am going to miss all my ALOHA cast mates. I'm sure I'll see them again in some shape or form, but I'll truly miss spending time with everyone in this context. That reminds me, I need to get my next project lined up. It's time to move on.